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As I said, sometimes the world is too heavy for my simple minded self. Well today it was very heavy to the point that my body felt sick. My fingers were slightly numb and they are still numb at the moment I am typing this. I felt so suffocated that I had to stop by a store to buy a caffeinated drink on the way back from work.

Well usually the experts would suggest me to share my problems with other people so I would let go of the pressure. However, it really doesn't help if the people who listened to me couldn't help giving solutions and criticizing the way I handled the situation. No, I had always believe from the beginning that people are not the best solution for any of my problems. The best way is to keep myself away from people. Then, will I only not hurt too much.

Anyway, most of my problems usually originated from people, from my incapability of communicating and handling people. Even when I am hurt, I do not know how to explain the source of it to other people. I have zero people skills. Plus, I am very bad at explaining in words. I doubtthat people understand what I am talking about in my blog entries. I had always wish that I will meet someone who can understand me without bothering me to explain.

Yes, it bothers me to explain. I had listed some taboo questions that people should not ask me when I have a problem. The most popularly used is "What's wrong?". I will answer: "Damn! If I know what's wrong I would not have a problem" but I only said that to myself.

Fortunately, I found a way to relax through this:

http://www.the-little-experience.com/web_site/pdfs/free_pages/windmill.pdf

Yup! Making paper windmills. It engaged my mind. It is easy. Something that I can understand. The most interesting part is it lets me keep going on by designing the decoration, varying the colours, the size. I had lots more in mind on the paper windmills that I will do. Someday I will upload the pictures of the windmills I did.

Perhaps some people think this is ridiculous and that I am a weirdo. But, I hope that I am helping those people out there who are facing the same thing as me.