sleep

sleep is better than anything else. if i am given a choice between sleep and eat....I would choose sleep...once i sleep it's really hard to wake up again... because once I walk away from the bed i knew that there are lots of work that i need to do.....

when i sleep i usually dream of the best things that i wanted in life...so it's really sad to wake up to face the reality...

sometimes...i wish i won't wake up....but that's a really evil thought....so i water it down by thinking of a less evil thought like....maybe instead of not waking up, i wake up losing my memory....i dont know who i am so i dont have to do all of the unfinished work...start anew....without the bad memories....the moments when people look down upon me...when people made me feel ugly when they told me that i am ugly(seriously i am not making this up, more than one person had told me that i m ugly)....and i still believe them although i kept telling myself that they re wrong....but it's really hard to convince myself....felt like i m lying to myself.

writing this makes me sick....i m going to sleep...bye2 evil people....cruel world....